all that's known

So i am coming home to groton tonight and going back to pittsburgh on monday night. It is going to be a long weekend... One of my best friends from growing up and a really good friend that i have had all my life passed away on tuesday morning...so it is going to be nice and not so nice to be home this weekend...

If anyone is around...give me call..i would love to hear from you



R.I.P. Patrick Michael Walkovich

there is so much i want to say. but cant. not here. and not out loud.

i miss you all...alot

i wish i could just say what i wanted and what i didnt want and it would just be....that would be fuckin sick

so summer has been really great so far! the celtics are the NBA Champs!!!!!!

and I have the most amazing girlfriend who is just fuckin amazing! She is in to a lot of the same stuff I am and she keeps me on my toes! we have gone to school together for a long time and its amazing that now we are dating, the way it happened was like a movie...and I LOVE moviessssss. I cant wait for school but it might be really hard to leave her!!! i just have had such a good summer with her so far:-) i love it!

I am not really doing any shows this summer. I am doing some performances with the VTP here and there but I am sorta taking it easy and being with friends and Stef! I got a new puppy! His name is Beckett Harrington :-) he is the best!

I miss doing theatre with my friends and stuff but I guess that everything good must come to an end and great things are still following! But I want to see some people reallllllly bad

I am ready though to go back to school...I miss my friends and I cant wait to live in an appartment and be on my own again! AND BE FUCKING SOPHMORES!!! Sophmore year is going to be just as hard as freshmen year and there will be no performing still but that is okay by me! I am ready to go back and work my ass off!!!

So other then a movie like romance and a Beckett and some celtics I am pretty much just summering it up:-)


ps see the movie Diving bell and the butter fly it is LIFE CHANGING

with respect,
tim

You’ve got the best of both worlds
You’re the kind of girl who can take down a man then lift him back up again
You are strong but you’re needed, humble but you’re greeted
And based on your body language and shotty cursive I’ve been reading
You’re style is quite selective though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests that this is just what happiness is

And what a beautiful mess this is
It’s like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don’t mind my nerve you can call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they’re quick and probably have to do with your insecurities
There’s no shame in being crazy, depending on how you take these words
I’m paraphrasing this relationship we’re staging

But it’s a beautiful mess, yes it is
It’s like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blames
And the kind and courteous is a life I’ve heard
But it’s nice to say that we played in the dirt
Cause here, here we are
Here we are

We're still here

And it’s a beautiful mess, yes it is
It’s like taking a guess when the only answer is yes

And through timeless words and priceless pictures
We’ll fly like birds not of this earth
And tides they turn and hearts disfigure
But that’s no concern when we’re wounded together
And we tore our dresses and stained our shirts
But its nice today, oh the wait was so worth it

Here we are

Sooo, Playground was fun. I got really close with people that I wasn't as close with before. So that was really good! It was also nice to get on the CMU stage and preform so it wasn't like this weight hovering over me.

I only have 4 more weeks left of classes and i come home during that 5th week!! I cannot wait to come home and relax for a bit before summer really starts. I hopefully can go to florida to visit my grandparents for a bit too before everyone gets home or out of school.

Nothings really changing. I miss the past but trying really hard to look at the future.. sometimes i wish shit didnt have to be this way though.

schools good but I can't focus 100% because there is something missing.

Like a captured bird
who yearns to sail the sky
I will unlock your cage now
so prepare to fly
and ill kiss the air
and hope it finds you well
so good bye

I'm not the one who could
give you what you need
so i bid farewell
but don't you
dare watch me leave

i didn't mean to
hurt you this way
but I'm not what you need
so i guess
ill just be on my way

one day you'll wake up
and thank me for what i did
when your living your happy life
behind your white fence
new husband, and kids.


----
Kiss the Air by: Scott Alan
Sang by Danny Calvert

Acting sucked today.








Please. show me a sign that you care.

So I cant wait for people that are coming to audition next weekend and the week after and my visitors along the way!!! I miss everyone so much and I cant wait to come home during march break! I love school but I am just so missing certian people at home so bad:-(!

Classes have been okay I guess. My acting teacher this semester is WAY harder then last semester, but I am sure that that is for the good! I just have not been writing any journal entrys so i am going to have to figure out how to make those up pretty soon!

I miss gabe alot...i really cant wait till he comes back and/or when i see him over break.

I love it here, my close group of friends are really starting to show through and I have gotten to spend alot of time with Tyree lately and that has been really nice. A little bit of home here at school.

I am so confused about alot of things right now and I hope that they all figure themselves out someday...I hope real bad. I hope that everyone is good and having alot of fun at whatever they are doing:-)

oh and i want you to know that I miss you.

If it is right for me. And if it is whats best. why does it fuckin hurt. all the time

I get it now. fucking christ

I know exactly how you feel
you were this close to closing deals
when everything fell from out your hands
you were forced to decide on other plans now
you figured it best to just to ignore it
otherwise you're only living for it
and if anyone ever wondered why you did it
you'd swear they never knew you sold your soul to the
burning, burning, burning bridges

you know exactly what I want so
I don't have to be so damn upfront
no matter the moment we decide to make our minds up
I know a man who may need a new assignment
to hand in his heart and take his last vacation
attempting to spoil imagination
if anyone ever wonders where he went
I wouldn't say that he spent his time driving over
burning, burning, burning bridges

burning, burning which is
nothing more than a longing for being uninvolved
uninvolved
uninvolved
uninvolved

oh, desire can cause heart attacks
oh, desire can cause heart attacks
oh, desire can cause heart attacks
oh, desire, it won't bring you back

-jason mraz

I will continue to pray for you, you have changed my life. I will always be here or ya man. Always.

So ahhh, school is good. It is alot of fun and I am learning alot. It is a little bit impossible though...I dont feel that i have succeded at anything so far....and I am reallllly sick of negative feedback....I love living on my own but god damnit do i miss my family and my pets and my best freinds. Its not even that school is like SOOO hard its that it is my life. I life here. I never get to home. Becasue home is still school.

I am making some really good freinds though. Like definatly some of my future life time bestfriends. Though these new ppl are amazing, they will never EVER replace my best freinds that i already have....I miss sleep overs and having two weekends of shows and having my own room.

Stuff with Annaleigh is awsome though! I have been able to pop up to the city a couple times and that has been really fun. Oh and she and my parents came for the parents weekend last weekend and that was awsome. Me and Gabe threw a little party for her called ANNALEIGH PALOZA. oh and One weekend she took me on a helicopter ride around the city! IT was SOOO cool! like...we were on 24! it was awsome!

So my scheduel is becomeing unreasonably busy....I have yoga starting at 8:00 AM and classes such as Acting and English and Voice and so on.. from then till 11:30 PM when crew for Guys and Dolls lets out. Then I rehearse from 11:30 till "TBA" for my "free scene" which goes up on wenesday. That will be great...more negitave feed back..

I hate to sound so miserable in my entrys becasue I really do love it! I am learning a ton, its just hard while i am going through it! so if you havent already, call me! becasue i miss everyone...my number is still 978 857 1106..Call me!

I am who I am. And I cannot change that. God dammit school is fucking hard as fuck. Makes me honestly ask myself what the fuck are you doing and how did you get your shitty ass here. I reallllly dont know if i am cut out for this.

fuck...

Fuck, school is fucking hard and im fuckin tired...


other than that....thank you annaleigh:-)

I am finally home!!! YAYYY

i love the fall

Drain the veins in my head
Clean out the reds in my eyes to get by security lines
Dear x-ray machine
Pretend you don't know me so well
I wont tell if you lie
Cry, cause the droughts been brought up
Drinkin' cause you're lookin so good in your starbucks cup
I complain for the company that I keep
The windows for sleeping rearrange
Well I'm nobody
Well who's laughin now

I'm leaving your town again
And I'm over the ground that you've been spinning
And I'm up in the air so baby hell yeah
Well Honey I can see your house from here
If the plane goes down, damn
I'll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn

Damn, I should be so lucky
Even only 24 hours under your touch
You know I need you so much
I cannot wait to call you
And tell you that I landed somewhere
And hand you a square of the airport air
And walk you through the maze of the map
That im gazing at
Gracefully unnamed and feeling guilty for the luck
And the look that you gave me
You make me somebody
Oh nobody knows me
Not even me can see it, yet I bet I'm

I'm leaving your town again
But I'm over the quilt that you've been spinning
And I'm up in the air, so baby hell yeah

Oh honey I can see your house from here
If the plane goes down, damn
I'll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn

You keep me high minded
You keep me high

Flax seeds, well they tear me open
And supposedly you can crawl right through me
Taste these teeth please
And undress me from the sweaters better hurry
Cause I'm heeding upward bound now
Oh maybe I'll build my house on your cloud
Here I'm tumbling for you
Stumbling through the work that I have to do
Don't mean to harm you

By leaving your town again
But I'm over the guilt that you've been giving
But I'm up in the air, said baby hell yeah
Oh honey I can see your house from here
If the plane goes down, damn
I'll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn
I'll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn
I'll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn

Damn, Damn
Damn you

You get me high
You keep me highminded
You get me high
You get my high-minded